Mum 3 years and 5 months. I don’t think I’ve ever needed you more or felt more lonely since you’ve been gone, yet I also need you in heaven to take care of Leo. Everyday I think of him and how we should be preparing for his arrival. Has he changed Mum, does he stay a baby in heaven or does he grow? I had a dream/image the other day (I’m not sure which) it was of a lady and a very small toddler holding the ladies hand. For a brief moment I thought it was you and Leo. I really hope it was 💙🦋 Life is so very cruel Mum. First you, then Leo and now little Rafa has leukaemia 😔 and needs chemo. He is hopefully going to get better and that is something we all hold onto in the scary, dark moments. A friend set up a fundraiser for them and people have been so generous ❤️ This will hopefully allow Jad to be able to support his family emotionally by allowing him to take time off work without the worry financially. Sarah and Matt have also broken up. Beautiful Sarah was devastated and just didn’t see it coming 😢 Dad misses you and said he was almost grateful you do not have to witness so much sadness. Little Lottie will be here soon, she will hopefully be the turning point and bring some smiles, especially to Peter and Jenny 💗 Your candle at home has been lit since I woke up. It is next to Leo’s. Love you Mum always xxx